Look at the bright side.

I've always wanted to attend a normal high school instead of a boarding school.

I've always wanted to go to a private university.

Because I wanted to live that kind of life, y'know.

But, 

If I didn't go for boarding school, I wouldn't stand a chance to learn french.

If I didn't learn french, of course I wouldn't get into this program.

If I didn't get into this program, I wouldn't be a scholar and go to France to study.

I wouldn't be here, right now.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.

What could be the blessing in disguise?

I've figured out that if I attended a normal high school, with that much of freedom,

I could've been influenced by lots of . . bad stuffs, y'know.

I'm not that strong, I can be influenced easily I have to admit.

So I could've done so many things beyond the limit, could've committed lots of sins.

But by attending boarding school, I was protected from all of these possibilities.

Plus, I heard being a teacher dapat banyak pahala.

If the students apply the knowledge we gave 'em, dapat pahala.

If they pass the knowledge to someone else, dapat pahala some more.

And if that someone applies it too, dapat pahala.

So I thought, that could cover up some of the sins I've comitted.

I knowww, that will never be enough as the sins I've comitted are like,

98765432123456789 times bigger than the pahala I'll get.

But at least, that's something. Better than nothing, right?

So what I'm trying to say here is ;

GOD HAS BIGGER PLANS FOR YOU

Be grateful.